Last night it went through a folder of images that its former owner had posted on his tumblr to queue them up here. There were also a handful of images of itself which it will use to illustrate some blog posts when it can. It thinks this image is from before it lived with its owner, and was still chatting pretty much nightly while hooded and gagged. (It's hard to tell the timeline for sure since this was still a typical setup after it lived with him too.) This hood has a semi-transparent face, so the microfoam tape over its mouth is visible (it would also have its mouth stuffed with either its panties or a large foam ball behind the tape). The cord of its headphones is also visible (for white/brown noise and to hear its owner, when he allowed). It is also wearing a zentai with the hood pulled down (after it lived with its owner and didn't need to see as often, the zentai hood was usually layered under a latex one). Its owner liked zentai very much, and it was more practical for daily encasement than full latex.
It had mentioned in its last blog that its owner was its first time experiencing a strict control dynamic with another person. It wanted to elaborate on that today. Before it met its owner, it did have other experiences with being controlled via online dominants - usually pretty similarly to what is shown here. It would chat on webcam while gagged, hooded, and restrained according to the directions of someone it was chatting with. Sometimes these were people it only talked to for one night or a couple times, and for others the conversations happened with some regularity for months or even years. It did sometimes get pushed past its comfort level in these situations, but it felt relatively safe to explore its interests this way because it still had the ability to stop, at least theoretically. (Once it gets into a mental state of what it assumes is some form of subspace, it does actually get hard to stop, even when it technically has the ability to. It has had to learn to limit its interactions to people who do not abuse that trust.) Only when it met its owner and was able to be fully controlled in-person could it understand what it really meant to be objectified and used. It very much misses that feeling, and its why now that it is no longer with him, it feels a bit hollow to be gagged/hooded/self-bound etc. on its own. It hasn't been gagged or hooded regularly for a while, and it misses that very much, but it sometimes feels very strange to do so for its own pleasure, when it feels more appropriate to do it for someone else's.
It is sorry to end on a bit of a downer note. Next time it will blog about some of the restrictions and training it got used to when it was first living with its owner.
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Last night it went through a folder of images that its former owner had posted on his tumblr to queue them up here. There were also a handful of images of itself which it will use to illustrate some blog posts when it can. It thinks this image is from before it lived with its owner, and was still chatting pretty much nightly while hooded and gagged. (It's hard to tell the timeline for sure since this was still a typical setup after it lived with him too.) This hood has a semi-transparent face, so the microfoam tape over its mouth is visible (it would also have its mouth stuffed with either its panties or a large foam ball behind the tape). The cord of its headphones is also visible (for white/brown noise and to hear its owner, when he allowed). It is also wearing a zentai with the hood pulled down (after it lived with its owner and didn't need to see as often, the zentai hood was usually layered under a latex one). Its owner liked zentai very much, and it was more practical for daily encasement than full latex.
It had mentioned in its last blog that its owner was its first time experiencing a strict control dynamic with another person. It wanted to elaborate on that today. Before it met its owner, it did have other experiences with being controlled via online dominants - usually pretty similarly to what is shown here. It would chat on webcam while gagged, hooded, and restrained according to the directions of someone it was chatting with. Sometimes these were people it only talked to for one night or a couple times, and for others the conversations happened with some regularity for months or even years. It did sometimes get pushed past its comfort level in these situations, but it felt relatively safe to explore its interests this way because it still had the ability to stop, at least theoretically. (Once it gets into a mental state of what it assumes is some form of subspace, it does actually get hard to stop, even when it technically has the ability to. It has had to learn to limit its interactions to people who do not abuse that trust.) Only when it met its owner and was able to be fully controlled in-person could it understand what it really meant to be objectified and used. It very much misses that feeling, and its why now that it is no longer with him, it feels a bit hollow to be gagged/hooded/self-bound etc. on its own. It hasn't been gagged or hooded regularly for a while, and it misses that very much, but it sometimes feels very strange to do so for its own pleasure, when it feels more appropriate to do it for someone else's.
It is sorry to end on a bit of a downer note. Next time it will blog about some of the restrictions and training it got used to when it was first living with its owner.